to myself.

its getting better.

its good to believe. to have faith.

because when you embrace what is happening, you can then react to it, then escaping.

low confidence is no longer an execuse.

i want a breakthrough?

then i gotta work towards it.

don't talk, DO.

don't EXPECT, but have faith.

because when you have faith, you will see the light.

faith doesnt only come from within you, it comes from around you.

people around you have faith in you, but i myself then need to have faith.

its hard, i know. but its part of growing up.

its hard, yet its something i want so much.

so, have faith ron. :)

one week away to showtime.

i just realise how weak i am.

i need to be strong, and stay that way.

because im the only son.

because i wanna be leaned on.

because i wanna be strong.

please.

have faith.

fantazia is nearing. and random thoughts are coming.

yes, everyone is feeling the heat now. some people might regret not putting enough effort up till now.

and im definately one of them. not that im purposely slacking but i just feel that i cant take out my 100% like last time. and i really wanna know why. seriously.

i have new found respect for alot of people. people that i take it for granted. like Ann, the alumnis, seniors, juniors and also freshies.

sometimes its those small things that make you change you point of view, and you end up feeling stupid about your assumptions about people. its been a long time since i really wrote in this blog i guess.

but i just wanna say thanks to everyone that ever came across my life.

and i wanna say sorry, for things i could have done/say, shouldnt have done/say.

i wanna be a better man. but, HOW.

updated?

i need to be responsible. ARGH.

grow up ronnie. GROW UP.

tired.

omg, 2 weeks. haha.

2 weeks to fantazia! need to chiong.

need to pang seh the games abit. LOL.

i hope. :D

omgwtfbbq long nv update. lol.

omg, today almost died from pract. TECHNIQUE MADNESS YO.

i need to work on my technique big time man. not giving ann what she wants.

other then that, im just plain tired. 1 month to show time. totally not prepared yet.

but somehow im gonna make things work, not because i have to, but its because I WANT TO. :D

ASSIGNMENT. :D

1 more month!

GO HARD.
GO HARD.
GO HARD.
GO HARD.
GO HARD.
GO HARD.
GO HARD.
GO HARD.
GO HARD.
GO HARD.
GO HARD.
GO HARD.
GO HARD.
GO HARD.
GO HARD.
GO HARD.


then


GO HARDER. :D

crunch time.

i need to be making right choices from now on.
more importantly, i think i need to make more sensible choices.

and fast. argh.

note: extremely stupid entry.

once again, an epiphany, or sort of,

its amazing what things can make you think otherwise, even the smallest thing possible.

step up 2 is dope, for me. because it made me realise.

i've been so stupid and shallow all along. if i put it straight, im barely scratch the top layer of DANCE.

things like showmanship, attitude, control. all along i trained. well, i least i thought i was training hard.

until now, i realise, i train without a correct purpose. of course we want to make choreographies look good. but what good is that if you are dancing without a personality? or say, a soul?

to what Ann told me a long time ago, thats is MOVING to her, not DANCING.

because we all know, dance is an expression. and all expressions needs to come from something, that something is your soul. your very own X-factor that makes you, you.

its amazing how much a movie can show me, there are people in this world, who can't dance even if they wanted to, but yet, im able to but not doing my best.

DAMN IT! why does it feels so hard to give a 100% now. guess im all talk. sometimes i dun even feel comfortable in my own skin. AGRH. this post is so bloody negative that i feel like im gonna commit suicide after this.

i wanna find my love back for dance, not that is gone, but its faded. but theres still a fire. a fire that no matter what i do, i will continue to let it burn.

FAITH UP! :)

lol. i love my friends. :D

really, i love my friends. im the luckiest bastard on earth to have all this friends. :D

i know it random. but really i got this feel. haha.

holidays.

tired. really very tired.

but im loving every moment of it.

my place of peace. :)

hello to my next phrase of life.

FIRST OF ALL!

RONNIE IS HAS FINISHED SCHOOL AND IS GRADUATED! (hopefully, lol)

hmm, song and dance is coming up. better work hard if not im gonna mess up! haha.

talents.
the other day, i was thinking about whats mine after reading shanes blog. i was hoping it to be dance. but i know its not. and i have come to accept that fact, trust me, it took awhile. LOL.

well, at least i can hold my chin up and say i really love to dance. i think thats better then having any amount of talent. LOL. ok, self-consoling i know.

well, life's been pretty good i guess. gotta catch up on my sleep time. finish up some stuff, and see what happens from then on. so....

IM OFF TO BED! hahha, i know you all wanna read more. LOL. jking. :)

At tml 11.00am :

its goodbye to studies.

and HELLOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO to dance & more...

:D

IM BACK!

im back now! with a brand new laptop. LOL.

BEAT THAT MAN. lol, i childish shit.

well, im graduating on WEDNESDAY!

then i will be free! HOLIDAYS BABY.

then army. -.-

lazy to blog. ahahaaaa..

SONG AND DANCE COME AR! CHIONG AR! UP! :)

gone for a week

well, com is down.

will update when my lapy is back.

till then. :)

meanwhile, go listen to Let go by neyo. its a good song.

time flies pass fast.

blink of an eye. im graduating. army soon.

my life is so weird. many people told me that its sucks to be in my shoes.

well, for certain parts of life. i agree. yet., some other things in life. i couldnt be more thankful for it. haha.

well, i wanna blog but i gotta go. HAHA. bye. :)

sadly, you took my smile away.

exams, dance.
song and dance, dance.
army, dance.
work, dance.
life, dance.

:)

dance is a by far the best creation by humans for me.

its also a language the hardest to master, yet the most expressive.

i love it. really. it puts a smile on my face, in my heart. a genuine one.

:)

i wanna thank everyone that i have danced with till now. been a pleasure.

:)

yet, reality bites. smile more ronnie, one step at a time. don't rush. lol.

HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR!

may all good fortune, love, joy, peace come to all my friends.

BE HAPPY PEOPLE!

hmmm. GONG XI FA CAI!

wahahaha.

:)

lost for words

i gotta be strong,
i wanna be strong,
i must be strong.

but its just so hard, so hard.

im sorry for being so weak.

i wanna be strong. i said im superman when it comes to things like that.

im lost, numb.

i need to dance, its my only escape from reality. i really hate to escape from things.

but just this once, let me escape to a paradise. where sadness its does not exist.

im just down now. im finding ways to brighten up life, but it seems like the light vanished.

i just wanna dance.

just dance.

i just wanna be a happy kid. like i was, few years ago. where affairs of the heart doesnt matter.

i just wanna dance.

just dance.

dance is all i have for now. my only escape from reality.

until the day im ready to face the world again.

ALMOST THERE RONNIE! ALMOST THERE!

THE TERM IS ENDING!

my life is coming back! all the dancing, people to meet, all the hanging out till late, all the LEPAK, all the things i have missed.

THEY WILL BE BACK!

and i swear i wun fail the semester. cause if i do, mum will be sad. and i don't like her to be sad. SO

GO GO GO!

EVERYONE JIA YOU, JIA YOU, JIA YOU!

i wanna dance like nobody's business. just me and you. :)