grown apart.

SBDC 2010

2010-04-08T01:27:00.000+08:00

Dear friends,

We, Joyce and The Boys, would like to take this opportunity to strongly suggest that if any of you happened to post anything regarding Mr Raja Shajaran, A Team(Organizing Company of SBDC), OR the event SBDC 2010 itself, please remove all posts immediately. This is to prevent any possible legal action to be taken against you, by the organizing company.

What we did was against the law of Singapore and the policy of Facebook usage. Our group, JATB, has already received the legal defamation letter by the company. However we have already cleared the matter with the company on OUR SIDE.

They will pursue 'the matter', following up against all the recepients who have posted up such comments on Facebook. They have screenshots, and JATB has seen them. Therefore, those who do not have Raja Shajaran in your friends list, please add him and either send him an email via facebook, or type our as a post, a SINCERE apology(please don't be sarcastic). Leave it there for a few days for the company to take note of it and clear the matter with each respective individual.

PLEASE TAKE THIS SERIOUSLY. We, Joyce and The Boys, are really sorry if any of our actions are influential to you in any way. Lastly, we're sorry for any inconvenience caused.

THE HURT LOCKER

2010-02-21T23:30:00.002+08:00

AWESOME!

love the show, i kinda like army shows the garang garang, cool machines and uniform and shit. haha, but i can't do it for a living luh, totally not my shit. lol. but hurt locker is DOPE! the character, the storyline and the constant changing of bad ass/care for friend soldier, the shots they had. woot!

well small update coming your way!

so zoe and me was suppose to head down to marina barrage to like chill out, watch whatever thats there and do couple-ly stuff. but then again, i happen to check the timing for HURT LOCKER, so we decided to ditch that and go for a nice movie, and being a film student, darling was easily bought in! hahhahaha.

but we definately will go to marina barrage though, probably prepare lunch box for each other or something and go eat there. lol. well, if we have the time.

OH YEA! I'm 2.5 months to my ORD!

after that I'm gonna find a way to make ends meet, dance like crazy bastard and still be a good son/boyfriend/friend(in no order of preference, lol).

on the other hand, SBDC & SDD practs are pretty good so far, but we just gotta do out other pieces first just in case we get lucky and stuff. fingers crossed here! oh yea, my life is happening right here! can't wait to accomplish something positive!

alright, I'm gonna leave now so peace! have a good sleep. its the attack of the monday blues in a few hours time. haaa.

p.s i went 3 days without bubble tea! my next bubble tea will be this thurs. oh yea, you heard it right. :)

PROCASTINATION

2010-02-17T10:53:00.003+08:00

yeap, that is what this blog is suffering from. I just don't have the drive to blog anymore! as much as I want too, or feel like 'hey this thing is kinda cool! i'll blog about it when i get home'

I DID NOT DO IT. lol.

Okay, here's a short update:

its 2010.

I'm 2.5 months away from completing national service.

I'm gonna take part in Singapore Best Dance Crew & Singapore Dance Delight, Wish me and my team luck here alright!! Practices are kinda productive. I'm surprised!

SHAUN EVARISTO IS COMING TO SINGAPORE. PRIORITY HERE.

Still with my AWESOMEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE one and only lady. had a short&sweet valentine's along with it. Its my virgin valentine's! haha.

Chinese New Year, so i got some ang baos. and I'm gonna go pray later.

Scheduled for physio today so I'm starting work tml, then is FRIDAY! haha.

alright, thats about it. :D later!

to my other half:

2009-11-16T00:29:00.000+08:00

You're the best. really. :)

HACKED!!!!!!!

2009-11-13T13:42:00.003+08:00

HELLO DEAR!!!!!!!!! you are slping comfortably at home nowww.. wahahahaha!! and I just HACKED YOUR BLOGGGG!! WEEEHAAA!!! =P (this is how you hack someone's account.. =PP)

sorry these few days i've been very busy and my schedule like hectic, everytime can only squeeze out 1hr with u then i have to run off for prac, or my mum's childcare, sch stuffs for something.. then after that have to wait until 10plus when we both end our pracs or class then we can meet again.. then u have to send me home, then go home, then reach home late, slp late, wake up early, then u become v tired.. SORRYYY!!!! then everytime also make u spend money when im suppose to help you save money.. SORRYYY!!!! i'll try to help you save more money from now on k? *HUGS*

But then even so, I LOVE YOU!!! THANK YOU!!! for always being so tolerant to all my nonsense, my mood swings, my rantings, my complains, my mum, my blur-ness, EVERYTHING!!! *thinking of how to put my feelings into words* like cannot.. damn... but nvm!! Jia you for BATTLEGROUNDS K BABY!!!! =DD RONNIE GO RONNIE GO!! TOOT FACE GO TOOT FACE GO!!!

Ulti love you.. <3

After so long

2009-11-08T04:38:00.002+08:00

I AM OFFICIALLY LEFT WITH 6 MONTHS OF NATIONAL SERVICE!

OMG! I'm starting to feel the ORD mood liao. But then again, a lot of my friends in NS are ORD-ing like next week and 1 of them already ORD-ed last friday.

soon will be my turn! I can picture so many things i wanna do with that freedom.

Well, I know it's freaking long since my last update and I doubt anyone reads this often also so oh wells, who cares eh. hahaha.

Wassup now is just getting ready for battlegrounds, hopefully the leave works out and we can go as 7 strong and trying spread my time out more evenly. I realized its been months since I last had a nice proper dinner with mum with having to rush off to somewhere after that.

I miss going out with mum to eat, do groceries and just chill out catch up on life with her. It's as if like my home has turn into a hotel, and I don't like it. it sucks. Time passes so fast by nowadays and sometimes I don't even know what happened in that time until its over and it's so scary because you are living your own life and yet you don't know what is happening in it. Man! all that stress and hectic lifestyle is taking a toll on my mental health i swear.

But on the lighter note, Im blessed enough to have a wonderful lady by my side for these 4 months, although our individual schedules are mad hectic but we still manage to squeeze some time out for some good old lovey dovey eh? :D

DAMN! I wanted to type somemore but looks like its getting real late so imma hit you guys up soon aite!

PEACE!

6 more months

2009-10-20T16:14:00.002+08:00

I am 6 months away from chasing my dreams.

I wanna improve my dance.
I wanna start dancing full time.
I wanna spend more time with my MUM. ( I neglected her like super alot, damn)
I wanna spend more time with my lady.
I wanna spend more time with PPPPP.
I wanna start supporting my family.
I wanna start taking driving lessons.
I wanna plan for my LA trip.
I wanna open a studio with my friends.
I wanna ORD.

lol.

yes people, thats how bad i want it to happen. I need to finish my army fast, so i can carry on with my life.

on a lighter note, Life has been good to me so far. EXCEPT FOR THE STUPID FPUL, it means full-paid unrecovered leave. ARGH.

Well, taught classes, took classes. learn that I'm still only scraping the surface of dance. Long long way to go! and yea, thanks to everyone that came down for crew class that day, its unexpected to have that amount of people. :D

to be honest I thought i most like will teach some R&B song but ended up doing Feel Good Inc instead. maybe its the start of breaking the boundaries and start grow as a dancer even more. haha. well, hope I was able to let you guys take something away from it.

ron.

hello world

2009-10-13T00:29:00.002+08:00

hi everyone, i know its been ages since i uploaded some worthy of reading or anything.

but first things first! this blog is up and running again! thats for sure. hahaa. so do check back or whatever ok?

anyway recently i've been twitting alot! its seriously fun! haha, can update thru sms. super shiok!

Twit me @ ronnnnnnnnnnie ! thats my user name. it has 10 'N's in it. dont ask me why. i just felt like it. :D

ok, now whats next would be a whole lot of dancing, training for battlegrounds. hopefully things get thru and we can go as 7 strong yo! well, thats the end of my quick update!

love y'all!

peace.

its been long!

2009-09-05T02:02:00.002+08:00

hey people! wassup wassup wassup!

haha, i know its been long since i last updated by yea, tml its gonna be the semi finals of suntec heats dance 2009!

its getting sick there, well, magic number 11. :D

HAHA, work hard people, work smart.

enjoy the process that makes you grow so much that you dont even see it until its over. so people, stay positive! :D

if you're happy and you know it, clap your hands. CLAP CLAP CLAP CLAP CLAP CLAP CLAP.

I <3 Zoe. HAHAHAA. :P

to zoe ng kaili:

2009-07-22T01:17:00.008+08:00

I LOVE YOU ZOE. :)

Its amazing how you make me smile. <3

teach me?

2009-06-14T04:38:00.002+08:00

omg, im seriously trippin'

i need to keep my straighten up!

damn. well, we will what fate has installed for us. hahaha.

good night world.

3:07 AM now.

2009-06-12T03:07:00.001+08:00

FUCK MAN, I CANT FALL ASLEEP. ZZZ.

the truth?

2009-06-05T00:14:00.002+08:00

been long since I last had a post eh?

well, if you guess are wondering how I've been doing, seriously I can tell you I've been better. haha. because right now my mind is in a weird state right now. I even doubt why am I feeling the way I am feeling now, or up till now.

but if I look at my life based on facts, I shud be feeling good instead, I get to dance everyday, I got my brothers, finished my choreos. I shud not be stressing over anything now eh?

but damn, issit the over-stretch pessimisitic character in me that has taken over so much that I forget what it is like to be happy?

well, maybe its just part of the journey to finding myself.

I realise I always rush into things. Screw me, need to find that chill side of me when it comes to issues that need to be handle delicately i guess. CHILL PILL!

well, i wanted to type more but im watch some stand ups and some battles vids.

man, the popping in SG is gettin crazier by the minute! haha.

props to all y'all dancers. :D

out!

crazy months up ahead.

2009-05-18T00:27:00.002+08:00

yes, i can foresee its gonna be crazy for the next few months.

BIG GROOVE! woo, im ready to start man. damn!

SUNTEC! haha. lets hope we will meet soon and wun laugh thru all of our pract.

ermm, lets see what else?

......

I WANNA LEVEL UP DANCE! :D

on a path to self discovery.

2009-05-08T00:39:00.002+08:00

I want to stop relying on people to believe me.

&

I want to start believing myself.
I want to motivate myself.
I want to realize myself.
I want to be truthful to myself.
I want to breakthrough within myself.

then i will discover myself.

p.s all the "want" in the post were originally "need" :/

20 more days to the one year countdown.

2009-04-21T13:55:00.003+08:00

well, life has been pretty good this few days, after all the crazy things we went through. I really appreciate the kind of kind life you can go to the studio with no obligations to anything and just really work and dance and enjoy it. its been far too long since we last did that man.

all the sessions, stunt trying and stupid things. good times man.

sometimes when u enjoy so much in one aspect of your life, you really tend to just forget about the other side of life, be it family, relationship, of even just life itself.

Take me for example, I don't reallly have much of a life outside of dance. my life does revolve around dance alot, yet I still think back at times, what happened to my life?

Its like the studio is a place I will subconsciously go every single day. maybe not the weekends because im prolly with mums, and its like I see other people from my camp, they go home, clubbing, etc..

my is just dance dance and more dance. not that im complaining but if someone were to ask me what do I do outside of dance, honestly I dun have an ans for them man. damn!

sometimes i really hope that politics in NRA will lighten abit, the way they go at each other sometimes, its even amazing to know we are all the same club. We shud honestly just treat each other with a more open-minded attitude. me especially. because I know when I fuck someone up, they really get it good.

but come on, I know this club is a good place to be in, but why not everyone lets make the effort to let this club be the best place to be in? lol. not tryin to start propaganda or shit but i just feel if we really pay attention to the smaller issues in the club, alot of big issues would be solve without us even needing to lift a finger. but sometimes we all just get too comfortable and leave things as it be.

well, i hope we start loving, and stop hating man. damn..

and good luck to what i wanna achieve. lol.

peace people.

after thoughts of this crazy 2 months.

2009-04-14T23:32:00.002+08:00

first up, CONGRATS TO NRA! WE ARE ONE SICK CLUB! haha.

yes for all that dunno, singapore is gonna be represented by your very own JOYCE AND THE BOYS, dun take theirs boys literally. they serve your asses man.

yes, both i go thanking my brothers, i just wanna thank a very special group of people.

kinderjoy

I'm really really thankful that you guys are willing to trust me with helping you all out with your piece and giving me a chance to share with you guys what I could offer. haha. from the first day u guys learnt blue magic, till the day on the finals, I really think you guys changed my mindset towards you all, and how training people can be as rewarding as competing. really really a heartfelt thanks to yan shun, shawnald, alvin, xiao qiang & and the thorns among the rose, stacey. HAHAHA.

and now for the sushi people:

you fellows know better then most of them do. what I wanna say is we, after all, did fulfill our motive for this comp. which is to just join as sushi, and dance as sushi. doing it our way. be it the comp screwed, judges or whatever shit comes, we stay true to what we believe in. thats how we do it aite? Malex i know you wan the 4k bad but damn look at you know, singapore kid rainen already la sia. matter of time brothers, and dun forget we still need to pull ore with us doing the piece on stage the next time sushi represent. well till then, we shud just all enjoy baowen's moment of glory at the finals. :D

to basic motion:

I've said it once, i still stand by what I say.

BASIC MOTION, is the crew name that I wanna take it to the top.

YEA, YOU HEARD IT. RMB IT BITCHES. HAHAHHAA. :D
no punt intended.

but personally I really enjoyed alot in BM. although our practices are fucked up, always not productive. end up talk cock chill, but i like the fact we share the same dream in this journey.
from we dun even dare to join this comp,
to rushing choreo out,
to learning and improving the choreo,

funny moments like,
JJ wanna crack his back,
david keep sneezing, asking every question possible to be as precise,
baowen always holding that invisible cigarette whe we start and always out diao one corner,
boss always come in and go " sorry guys, i really try already." if not, "gusy ar, maybe wanna go thru again with me?" LOL.
and me always trying to act like good but fucked up also.
or farid will be all over the place, kinderjoy-ing and bm-ing.

the process where we thinking what song to use,
what face to give,
self shiok when see practise video,
trying out effects,
messing up shit,
arguing ( mainly me and farid, and for the lamest of things ),
being all nervous during heats,
being all envious at RA and JATB training cause they are always so focused,
envy other people,
listen to malex to shit/ give faith,
try out closer to god jump,
david keep wan to have swag,
bw doesnt quit with JJ,
zx codenamed green turtle with the hoody,
zx go hospital,
the 5 of us worried like shit,
trying to act like it did not affect us much,
coming up with formation on the spot,
and till the final showdown,
where the spotlight shone on us, on that very stage.

its been a dope experience. really crazy. all the more out of the world because its with you guys.
well, guess its turns out to be a bittersweet ending and we all learnt that smalls things that get overlooked will turn into something big one day.

so yea. I LOVE SUSHI MOTION.

to top it off, I LOVE NRA.

but even top that shit off, I LOVE MY MUM. :D

sushi motion

2009-04-10T01:11:00.001+08:00

GUYS, please make all necessary arrangements needed, to rip the shit up on sat and sun.

finally its down to the finals, hopefully for groove too.

well, all we can do now is to believe, work hard, push ourselves over the damn limit.

and finally, show love on the day itself.

GO GO GO!

sushi motion FIGHTING! :D

we are damn lucky. DAMN lucky.

2009-03-30T00:40:00.002+08:00

well, first of all, congrats to all the groove and sbdc people making it thru.

damn. we really too lucky already.

its been super tiring till now, i still feeling the fatigue in me. hopefully my body recharges soon. for the finals.

anyway, BM, we know what we need to work on. so yea, its the state of mind. we can do it!

other then that, i just wanna give big UPS to all NRA teams. I love you all to the max. :D

another crazy week coming up

2009-03-23T01:02:00.001+08:00

GROOVE AND SBDC.

NRA FIGHTINGGGGGGG!

hope all teams get through man. then world peace. AHAHHA.

anyway, work hard ronnie! u got alot of shit to do man! :D

to the CKC champions

2009-03-16T04:00:00.001+08:00

I'm damn proud of you guys today. honest, 100% from the heart. :D

CHAMPIONS IN DA HOUSE!!!

to myself:

2009-03-02T00:08:00.003+08:00

I made a promise and I plan to stick to it.

I wanna get back to the times, where I actually worked hard, and not just slacking around and shit.

Self control ron. Self control.

Only I can make the change happen. and yes, I want to change.

!!!!

to a brother of mine:

2009-03-01T04:34:00.001+08:00

HAPPY 21st BIRTHDAY DAVID.
wishing you be all that you strive to be,
and may we rock the stage together soon.

peace. :)

i can feel it. its coming, bit by bit

2009-02-17T00:10:00.002+08:00

wanted to wish my brothers Baowen and DVN good luck for their presentation tml.

AFTER THAT DAVID GRADUATE. and BW still got one sem to go. lol

and too all studying for exams, please score high high.

and to my sushi brothers, are u guys starting to feel it? lol. im feeling it already. :D

oh yea. its the lover's day.

2009-02-16T00:19:00.002+08:00

happy valentine's day to all the lovers out there.

to all the singles, haha, better luck next year! LOL.

a reminder to ronnie:

well, time and again, challenges you face are to make you stronger. not to break you down. but we, or rather I, tend to forget that.

SO, if people around you look like they are way better then you, they probably are. so start working on it yo. :D

then again, its is always to express, never to impress. so keep it on the right track.

you'll be fine. have faith. :)

hmm. i think i've changed. like damn!

2009-02-09T23:59:00.003+08:00

like the title says, i think i've changed. haha. I'm lazier now. like SLACK to the core. haha, maybe I shud just let someone slap me in my face and tell me how lousy I am to make me wake up and work hard all over again.

but then again, realizing that myself would be a better option I guess, after all, when you understand a situation, then one will make the effort to make a difference. Rather that doing it blindy just because someone says you're like this or that.

Groove in the west is nearing! man, im super excited! haha. finally sushi has began training again. but damn, we need to step up man, really too slack. remind & push each other aite?

Saw the teams that are coming from NRA. its just too imba. I still rmb we just stood in the studio, 5 of us looking depress and shit. hella funny. REMEMBER YO, we are just in to have a good time, enjoy the process and each other company. we dun get this chance often eh.

hmm, been recently trying to remind myself to extend when i dance, of course i wanna make my dancing look bigger that what it is now, but I hope I don't lose me in the process man. sometimes you are so obsessed with something you lose yourself. so, take it as it come ron, push yourself, but dun cross the wrong line. haha.

haha, guess thats it for now. BED TIME! :D

amazed.

2009-02-01T23:25:00.002+08:00

Finally, I got a shot at doing what I wanted to do for so long. freaking unbelievable.

THANK YOU YIU!

Now I really understand why somethings had been told to me. and to understand then one will really work on their weakness.

LAST TIME baby.

FEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEELLLLLLLLLL!

shit man. argh! :D

funkamania 09!

2009-01-31T02:38:00.002+08:00

tml is most probably a big day for alot of dancers in sg. hahaha.

GOOD LUCK TO EVERYONE! well, this year alot of upcoming crews, and alot of crews that come back strong.

exciting man! its nice to be able to just enjoy what they have to share. :D

anyway, catch a glimpse of yiu and bo today!

yiu is as good as ever man. SICK!!!! so is bo. nabei.

cant wait for the classes man. :D

slow, but at least im moving.

2009-01-29T00:51:00.002+08:00

Chinese new year was ok. Man, my mum went on a spending spree and I was lucky enough to be in it.

Spend some quality with my mum, and with myself in the studio. gotta admit it brings me all the way back when i was a freshie practicing alone in the studio. all the turns & isolations I forced myself to do when it got so boring. BUT HEY! when you really put your heart and soul into it and feel each movement you are doing, you are bound to discover something new eh?

haha. hmm, actually life seems pretty good now, except the fact that Im still an army boy. but yea, i like it the way it is, dance, choreo, teach, chill, eat, sleep, have fun. ahah. dun wan to ask for too much.

but yea, keeping my options opened. :D

CLASSES ARE BACK!

2009-01-20T00:14:00.001+08:00

YEA MAN! classes have started.

DOPE! time to break out of my comfort zone, and learn. like really hardcore learning.

hopefully my bad habits dun kick in as much. SELF CONTROL BABY!

haha. well, shoutout to sushi:

Lets do this brothers.

rip this shit up.

one step closer.

2009-01-19T00:35:00.002+08:00

guess, everyone has to grow, one way or the other.

I got a couple of new year resolutions to add in already man. LOL.

New roles to take on, new responsibilities to handle.

Opportunities to improve is all around. its whether am i ready to grab it and embrace it with an open mindset and attitude.

I have to admit Im still quite reluctant about some issues. heh.

well, lets start with dance classes then! :D

BACK TO BASICS!!!!!!!

omg. to myself.

2009-01-14T23:44:00.000+08:00

you seriously need to keep up. haha.

stop messing around yo.

but its all good. :D

BOTTLES UP!

PUT EM UP!

WHAT MOTHERFUCKINGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGG!

and the beats goes on,

da da da.. :D

wow, tagged!

2009-01-11T23:30:00.003+08:00

I've got nothing to do/type but i feel like blogging and mr saneshane tagged me. lol so here goes,

Here are the rules:
Once you’ve been tagged, you have to write a blog with 10 weird, random things, facts, or habits about yourself. At the end, you choose 10 people to be tagged, listing their names and why you chose them to be tagged.

Don’t forget to leave them a comment “You’re It!” and to read your blog. You can’t tag the person who tagged you. Since you can’t tag me back let me know when you’ve posted your blog so I can see your answers. (i really dun feel this paragraph, kinda gay. LOL.)

1) Im a taekwondo blackbelt holder.

2) I love newera caps. totally. but fuck the fake shit. i only buy authentic ones nowadays. bad exp with the fakes.

3) I drink alot of bubble tea/coffee bean/starbucks.

4) I have ET fingers because i bite my nails alot.

5) I had never had a girlfriend before. yes, i know i know..

6) I love basketball comics.

7) I like corners, and thick blankets.

8) I dun dare to wear boxers until i came into NRA and kinda forced into. but boxers are dope.

9) I am an introvert, and low confidence guy.

10) The last time I got angry was in secondary 2.

people tagged:

8 Steps
soul out crew

thank you for making me realize once again.

2009-01-09T01:30:00.003+08:00

EXPRESSION FROM THE HEART.

never, was it was to impress. damnnn!

a good start to the year?

2009-01-06T00:06:00.002+08:00

I AM SUPER INSPIRED TO DANCE.
I AM SUPER INSPIRED TO IMPROVE.
I AM SUPER INSPIRED TO CHOREOGRAPH.
I AM SUPER INSPIRED TO FREESTYLE.
I AM SUPER INSPIRED TO EXPRESS MYSELF.

I CANT EXPLAIN HOW INSPIRED I AM.
BUT I AM THANKFUL FOR BEING ABLE TO DANCE.
:D

2009 resolutions.

2009-01-01T13:55:00.002+08:00

1) Dance. be better at it, enjoy it more, dance more. take it to the next level.

2) Spend more time with my family & friends, be a better friend/son/person.

3) Start a love life maybe? HAHA. we'll see man.

till then, ENJOY 2009 PEOPLE!

start the year good so its gonna stay that way the whole year! :D

goodbye 2008.

DANZATION TWO ZERO ZERO EIGHT

2008-12-24T23:16:00.002+08:00

Magic happened on the 19th and 20th of December this year.

Magic Im lucky enough to witness, lucky enough to be a part of.

Although there are always faults to pin point out of productions, and we indeed do have, but I'm still very proud of each and everyone of you. You guys proved to yourselves you are on another level. By being professional, being disciplined, and still not forgetting the fun and love. We will DEFINITELY turn into a 200 STRONG crew in time to come. Not some better some weak. ALL STRONG baby. LOL.

I really consider myself more than lucky to be able to do 6 items in this production. lol, thats more then i can handle. all because of all the dope ass choreographers stressing us up with sick pieces.

im just sad that i could do a few pieces though, cause like my brother ORE is choreographing and i dun have the chance to do it, same goes to Darren for Tanglin, damn sorry i pulled out of it man. but i really cant attend any training. like bad to join in. LOL. THERES ALWAYS NEXT TIME! :D

This danzation has really been a huge stepping stone for me, I learnt alot because this time round i get to teach, its really a wonderful experience, getting to work with people with diff personalities, diff styles, diff focuses.

to my people in addiction:

THANK YOU! im really really really honored to have you guys in this piece. I know my sessions are little and we nv really got the chance to have full force at training but its doesnt really matter eh? because i believe you guys did great the 2 nights. plus u all have to go thru the most jia lat quick change in the whole danzation. LOL! sorry!

Firstly I wanna thank you all for willingly to be inside this piece, i know the style of it is still damn raw, super unrefined, but you guys still went thru with me! APPRECIATED! haha. and thank you for tolerating my naggy and sometime pointless explanantions because im not exactly a good speaker/teacher. BUT I PROMISE I WILL IMPROVE NEXT TIME! haha.

LOVE YOU GUYS. *bows*

haha, I know iits really abit O_O to some people as of why would i choose a song like addiction. But actually when i chose the song, i wanted to choreograph something that can push myself to another level character wise, thus i choose a song more of a sleek feeling, because to be sleek on stage, man, you gotta work that confidence like no other man. I wont say im there already, but i know im on the track. HAHA. hows fast i can go will depend luh. But im hoping i can go at full throttle from now till FOREVER! HAHAHA.

so yea. thats like the main idea behind the thing. hahhaa. random i know. LOL.

and i realize i really like sharing/teaching, whatever you call it. alot, its a nice feeling. when u see others realize something because of something u say or done. haha.

and yes, although i suck a choreography but i LOVE IT! hahaa. its like another outlet to express myself.

just hope i will get chances like this again. HAHA.

AND YES, I AM SUPER DUPER UBER QUBER WUBER RUBER TUBER YUBER PUPER FUPER GUPER HUPER JUPER KUPER LUPER ZUPER XUPER CUPER VUPER BUPER NUPER MUPER proud of my SUSHI brothers, AND of course the BBRT & da PPPPPs yo.

freaking talents. i hate standing next to you all, u all area like cheatcode dancers. use GAMESHARK one. hahaha.

but nevertheless, i love you guys. BIG TIME. haha.

one last shoutout to my SUSHI crew:

FD - you already know how proud of you I am, keep going man. reach for the skies, and dont stop there. :D

ORE - AGHH FATHER! hahaha, heal your shit up fast eh. let see you work your magic soon. and yes, i wanna do your choreography next time round. SWITCH! ahaha.

JiaJun - SUP house king. haha. DOPE music, even better dancing, DONT ever doubt yourself of your improvement alright? i know sometimes you feel like you nv improve, but believe me, thats the last thing you should worry about.

Baowen - *do the chest pop* lolololol. wassup t---y b--r. LOLOLOL. great showman huh someone. UP already la hor. but the addiction stunt really O_O but then again, its part and parcel of growing up. dont stop aite? we still got long roads to go, as sushi. HAHA. :D

Malex - lol, must call you malex already. BBOY in da crew. You really fucking talented for a bboy. but u really are one eccentric dude. i nv see people will shout so loud for no fuck reason one. LOL. but hey thats you. and im good with it. LOL. but back to bboying, look at you, 1 year plus and u are already bboying with the top crews in the scene. go to korea man. haha. STRONGER EVERYDAY BITCH. all the best for your bboying. but dun forget your dance aite.

so thats my first part of DANZATION aftermath thoughts. haha. more are coming so yea.

AND BTW! IM 8-5 BABY! DANCEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!!! :D

NOW, ITS THE NEW REVOLVING AGE.

2008-12-11T02:43:00.003+08:00

IM PUMPED UP FOR DANZATION. I CAN FEEL IT ALREADY.

GUYS CAN YOU ALL FEEL IT!

NOT THE PRESSURE, BUT THE EXCITEMENT. THE WONDERFUL FEELING ON STAGE.

THE FEELING OF PERFORMING AND SHARING TO EVERYONE THAT HAS COME DOWN TO SUPPORT US.

COME ON NRA. ITS TIME TO LET THEM WITNESS THE NEW REVOLVING AGE.

this picture damn got aura. LOL. XD

life is never a smooth ride.

2008-12-10T01:45:00.002+08:00

weirdest things happen at weirdest timing in your life.

really. a weird mixture of emotions.

ALL I WANNA SAY TODAY IS,

2008-12-06T03:02:00.001+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO SUSHI!

we are 2 years old!

YAY!

and i finally got a sushi shirt i can wear out one. nb, the previous one XXL. ultimate la.

and screw ore for being so sick. Smellyyyyyyyyyyyyyy with a capital S.

DANCE DANCE! :D

you, me, us, we, family.

2008-11-30T02:21:00.002+08:00

We've been working our asses off. OK, maybe not me. I only dance like 2 days per week. LOL.

As much as I wanna complain about the lost time, I figured I rather be thinking how to make full use of the coming free time.

Anyway, I liked the full run today.
maybe its the cheering,
maybe its the improvement of everyone,
maybe its seeing the amount of effort put in no matter how bad the vibe gets,
maybe its being able to dance finally after 5 days,
maybe its seeing my friends,
maybe its the music,

I don't really know why but it felt good. haha.

The talent in this club is really amazing, beyond imagination man.

but, the effort and the people's zeal, its even more impressing.

Ok, you might think im blowing things up trying to make everyone feel good. but I mean what I say, 100% straight up.

I know many feel that we aren't ready for stage, but I think its come to a point, its no longer whether we should judge ourselves bases on simple facts, how well you do a step, how did you manage to put in showmanship for that item.

I think its already boiling down to our WANT for this to happen, if we really WANT it to happen, 2 weeks is more then enough time to get whatever you want right. To me at least, i think this way.

I felt dry the last feel runs, its almost im only dancing because there's a full run, if not, I would not even get a chance to dance. I really felt sucky, I know I wanna dance every weekend, yet, when i actually stepped into the studio, I lost myself, amidst the commotion, the talking, the music. I can barely see myself in the mirror. Lost.

I find myself shy away from my own eyes when i dance in the mirror, I felt a sense of guilt, like I did not do a lot of people justice, like the people who allowed me to have a chance at their showcases. that's a really really lousy feeling. Not knowing your stuff, feeling like you are dragging an item down.

but now, its really a lot better for me now. I feel the love from my friends. See them taking the effort to approach me to teach me. Believe me, im damn thankful for it, although I don't look like I am. Now at least i know my stuff, i can start working on really making it good. Its a blardy late time to start only now, i know. I don't even wanna waste time defending myself for that.

If 2 weeks is what I have, then 2 weeks it is. I wanna be positive, be able to spur myself on in tough times like this myself, only then i can also affect my friends around me. I don't wanna rely anymore. I hate my habit of always letting small things get the better of me, always needing constant consolation.

I wanna be a better man. a even better dancer. And I swear I will be. Even though im as ordinary as one can get.

heh.

man, its whatever.

2008-11-09T17:08:00.002+08:00

sometimes, its just one of those days, you just feel tired, demoralized, lazy, messy, countless thoughts in your mind, find yourself all over the place.

today kinda feels exactly like that.

maybe I din have enough sleep last night,
maybe Im worried about posting,
maybe Im feeling fucked up after hearing Ann told us today.

there are 1001 reasons to feel fucked up.

but i just wan to find my escape.

it used to be the studio, maybe because of danzation, there's an unknown sense of responsibility that i am not particularly good at handling yet.

I really want danzation to be a big success. i know it will be.

maybe its army, maybe i know i gotta waste another week.

man, its whatever.. im one messed up guy. zzz.

punched right in the gut.

2008-11-02T16:16:00.002+08:00

and i cant do shit about it.

and theres army to take time away from you. zzz.

sometimes, life just really fucks you up to make sure you learn it the hard way.

and now happens to be one on those times. zzz.

come on, gimme what I want!

on the side note:

people please jia you for danzation, although we keep saying alot of things not done, but i see like actually alot of items done le. show everyone just put in effort to make the best out of it k?

don't let the negativity force you to practice.

instead, let the positivity motivate you to strive even harder. IF, you get what i mean. :D

peace people.

ron gonna be out for 2 weeks.

miss me. HAA

butterflies in the stomach.

2008-10-27T11:39:00.002+08:00

i always get this feeling when i know i have to book in today. even though its like nth much, but somehow theres a part of me feeling uneasy about it.

Maybe its because I know i have to see another week fly pass just like that,
maybe im worried about my mum,
Maybe im worried about danzation.

or I just plainly dislike army.

man, i was about to blog some positive shit but NS just keeps bringing me down. boo.

BUT, im happy that im gonna finish addiction piece soon, sorry to all the dancers, i know i choreograph freaking slow. next time i will jia you! if there's the next time.

ok! i will update when i come back later. now like abit run out of ideas.

and, im happy that i got to be part of the choreography team this time, learn alot, been amazed by talent in the club yet again. man, SICK! :D

freaking cliche post

2008-10-27T01:44:00.001+08:00

i wanna type alot, but im freaking tired to do so now. so im gonna hit the sack.

updating in a while! ;D

haha. nice & simple. just the way i like it.

2008-10-19T16:07:00.002+08:00

a small little surprise by the people in the studio today. haha, its a nice fuzzy feeling to experience once in a while. so THANKS.

the chocolate damn nice. haha.

this goes out to everyone doing danzation:

well, I believe danzation will be a success. because every book out i hit the studio, its just amazing to see that everyone improved so much. its amazing. haha.

maybe its bias to say this but i think da sushi peeps are improving at like rocket-speed. damn amazing. the 5 of you are like dancing at another level already, plus you guys are like in planning, music, vice president, working. man, u guys have high stress torlerance man.

mad respect.

but that doesnt take away anything from everyone else, so i just wanna say i hope you guys can really chill more in the studio, dun look so tensed up. you guys are doing great ah!

love watching you guys dance. ;D

suddenly a random thought

2008-10-11T02:57:00.003+08:00

PPPPP stands for:

people who party, play, practice and perform.

HAHA. told you its gonna be random. :/

one more week to 3 months.

2008-10-05T18:25:00.001+08:00

hmmm. tryout a new mindset?

hopefully it works. lol.

i wanna say..

2008-10-01T14:39:00.003+08:00

sorry to my mum.
sorry to dance (esp. people in addiction).
and sorry to my dear friends, includes everyone that i ever know, or anyone that considered me as a friend.

I'm really sorry. but I promise I will become a better son, a stronger dancer, and a more understanding friend.

sealed.

omg, omg, omg, omg.

2008-09-28T16:24:00.001+08:00

PLEASE. let everything go my way. for this once. just this once. please.

i promise i will be thankful for everything that ever happen.

life of an army boy.

2008-09-22T07:08:00.001+08:00

AHHH, back to camp again.

the struggle begins. hahahahaha.

when you have a bad day, smile, and look forward to tomorrow.

2008-09-18T03:19:00.003+08:00

there are 1001 ways to do one thing.

there is 1001 kind of views on a single issue.

but the trick is how make people agree on one in the countless solutions.

do you see problems as opportunities? or plain problems?

do you have the heart to solve it? or are you just forced to solved?

do you want it? or do you need it?

people learn from their mistakes, smart people learn from other people's mistakes.

remember the good times.

damn sad. where is the love, the trust.

where?

why cant everyone just be real. why put on fake masks, to make people happy.

why?

CHOREOGRAPHY.

2008-09-18T03:19:00.002+08:00

damn big word.

i think choreography is also something that needs to train one. The more you do, the faster things come, and better in quality also.

but right now, im one noob ass beginner man. hahahahaha.

still got formation! hong gan liao.

addiction people! we must jia you ok!

I promise I will choreo properly, so we can all look good on stage. JIAYOU JIAYOU JIAYOU! haha.

but its really an interesting thing to try out actually. its really fun, but its saps brain juice like nothing on earth man.

well, ken has gone over to UK. got to talk to him awhile just now. it was nice to hear his voice, but ken if you see this, DONT YOU EVER DARE GIVE UP DANCING. i'll skin you alive if you do so.
give it some time man. its the holidays over there so you cant get anything started yet. but you gonna do just fine.

cause you are ken! sure can one. LOL.

that day at the airport, its really sad to see a brother go like that. Although we not super ultimate close but i really respect this guy alot. I believe he showed many of us how versatile a dancer can be, and how good a boyfriend he is too. heh.

I learnt alot from him, most of the time without him teaching me, just see him dance, the way he move, you feel like "eh how come I nv try that before?". he is that good. well, at least I got the honor to do one KFC commercial with him. AHHAHA.

well KEN! TAKE CARE AT UK MAN. BIG LOVE FOR YA HERE.

p.s transfer me your choreo power leh. hahahhahaha. just kiddddddinggggggggg~ -.-

possibilities of the brain, the heart and the soul.

2008-09-12T01:40:00.002+08:00

seriously, im turning 20 this year.

Yet I cant proudly say i understand myself. Here's the irony, I know I wanna dance, wanna be good at it. Go as far as possible with it. but there are negative sides of it too. being a competitive person like myself. I do compare myself with people alot, and it takes the fun of dance away.

I really want this to stop. period, and enjoy true fun in dance.

for now, I really feel good to be able to dance during my free time. I know I love dance that much more after being enlisted and stuff, but at the same time, I also feel that I have deprove, and lost touch and not capable of what I used to be able to do.

its really a mixed bag of feeling now. damn frustrating to think about it.

Well, now my plans, finish NS, dance as much as I can while im at it. save up, head for the states. push myself to the limits there. and start working after that. haha.

I really dont mind being normal, I dont need to be rich or whatever. Just don't ever take dance away from me.

alrights, I have totally no idea what im talking about now. sorry guys. haha. just writing down thoughts that pass my head. no logic.

ahhh, sleep time. zzz.

so many thoughts, so little time to write down.

2008-08-31T00:03:00.002+08:00

to be able to execute something you desire from an image in your head.

bloody hard.

im talking about choreography right here.

i kinda realize in this few weeks, im really not the choreo kind of dancer. but i wanna be a dancer & choreographer. haha.

not just a choreographer, but being a good one. yea, you heard me.

but at this current stage, im not ashamed to say i have absolutely no talent whatsoever in the field of choreography. HAHAHA.

well, another thing is before I know I had to choreograph a piece, every book out dance has been extremely enjoyable, but once i knew I had to choreograph something, I start to stress up and forget about the fun of things.

the bad part of me is, whenever I do say a move or something, I will always feel there is a better move to replace that. so end up, like FD say, im a blardy slow at choreographing. hah

BUT NO WORRIES! I will work hard. really.

because this is what i have been waiting for, so im not gonna screw it up. no matter what happens.

on a side note, please pray i get into MDC so i can get to dance again. :)

p.s I don't even wanna go in whining about how much i deprove. its fucked up. lol.

CHEERS RONNIE. ALL SMILES. :D :D :D

suddenly, we just dont care.

2008-08-24T04:19:00.002+08:00

well, this weekend, i don't really know what to post. but im happy at least that my field camps and outfield times are over for tekong. haha.

well, came across some phrases during this week. thought I should share them, since they brought me to realize some minor yet important things. haha

1) We are given a mouth that closes and ears that don't, for a reason.

2) The only place success comes before hard work is in the dictionary.

3) Its better to light a candle then curse the darkness.

4) The door of opportunity doesn't open with a remote control

5) One of the surest way to enjoy money is to earn it before you spend it.

6) Greatest of all faults is to be conscious of none.

7) No one can make you feel inferior without your consent.

8) There are no ordinary people.

9) Always begin with the end in mind

10) The best and most beautiful things cabt ve seen or touched, they must be felt with the heart.

11) Do you love life? then do not squander time for it is the stuff that life is made of.

12) The future belongs to those who believe in the beauty of their dreams.

13) When life hands you lemon, make lemonade.

14) Whatever you are, be a good one.

15) You'll miss 100% of the all the shots you don't take.

16) Only those who attempt the absurd achieve the impossible

17) of all the things you wear, your expression is the most important.

18) It is much wiser to choose what you say than say what you choose.

19) Its no the size of you in a fight, but the size of the fight in you.

20) Don't count the days, make the days count.

21) The biggest mistake any employee can make is to assume he is working for someone else.

22) Speaking without thinking is like shooting without aiming.

23) Its a great art to laugh at your own misfortunes.

24) Time is a precious dift, for it is only given to you moment by moment.

25) Pray in the storm, but keep rowing for the shore.

26) Problems are opportunities in work clothes.

this is especially important to me:

It you want to be original, try being yourself. Because no two man are made exactly alike in this world.

well, food for thought. :)

3 weeks and 3 days and 5 week long epiphany.

2008-08-17T13:53:00.002+08:00

APPRECIATE.

its only till now i truly understand the meaning of the word.

kinda late i know. 20 years into my life before realizing what it means.

18 more days till my passing out parade.

then my army life is once again thrown into uncertainty.

SHITTTT.

i just wanna have time to dance. DANCE DANCE DANCE.

haha. i think im feelign the side effects of army already. if you know what i me.

ron out! next week people! :D

army army army and more army.

2008-08-16T10:44:00.002+08:00

well, so far. 5 weeks into my life of a recruit. I seriously learned to appreciate things more.

a simple meal, a good night sleep, even a cup of warm water. all these to me a like privileges.

but the best thing that i can do?

i can DANCE. haha

well, few of my friends asked me, 'hey dude, you from dance ar?'

im like, 'yea, wassup?'

then question of the day comes:

'then you think you can dance anot?'

somehow im glad, my answer is yes, with a smile on my face. :D

7 more weeks.

2008-07-27T16:34:00.002+08:00

wassup people. haha. my 2 weeks of confinement is over. haha.

well, 7 more weeks and i will be out of tekong.

hmm. shud be planning to go for auditions in MDC. hopefully there is a spot for me there.

THEN I CAN DANCE DANCE DANCE! :D

till then, dance hard people. :D

oh my god.

2008-07-09T02:55:00.003+08:00

im heading into national service tomorrow!

i can't believe it. hahahaha.

well, i will miss each and everyone of you. :)

take care alrights!

- GONE, FOR NOW -

YAYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY

2008-07-06T02:11:00.001+08:00

NRA WON ITS FIRST BATTLE IN HISTORY TODAY! :D

CONGRATS BLACKJACK!

to my Ps:

2008-07-05T02:50:00.004+08:00

I LOVE YOU ALL.
PERIOD.

IM GONNA CAPS LOCK THIS WHOLE POST TO SHOW YOU ALL HOW MUCH I LOVE YOU ALL. LOL.

SERIOUSLY, ITS BEEN SO LONG SINCE WE HAVE LIKE 17 PEOPLE EATING TOGETHER AND HAVING FUN. SLOW MO TRAFFIC LIGHTS, TALK ABOUT GIRLS, THE MOVE OF THE DAY.

I TOTALLY LOVE IT. HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA.

AND I THINK THE PHONE YOU ALL BUY IS LIKE DOPER THEN MY PHONE, EVEN THOUGH THE SCREEN ONLY CAN SHOW LIKE 1 WORD. BUT I LOVE IT. CAN FEEL YOU ALL WHEN I USE THE PHONE. LOL, LIKE SPIRITUAL ALREADY. HAHA.

BUT I THINK ARMY WILL BE A BREEZE BECAUSE EVERYDAY I GOT EVERYONE I LOVE WITH ME, THE PHONE REPRESENTS YOU ALL, THE WATCH REPRESENT MY MUM. YAY.

I JUST WANNA THANK ALL OF YOU. IM A HAPPY KID TODAY. REALLY REALLY HAPPY.

OK, EVEN THOUGH CAIXUAN(LOLOLOL) AND BECKIE NOT INSIDE BUT I STILL LOVE YOU ALL, WE NEED TO TAKE A FULL PIC WHEN EVE IS BAD OK, PROMISE AR. :D

*THIS IS THE FIRST TIME I DON'T FEEL BAD SKIPPING DANCE CLASS. :X

CHIONG AR! ARMY ARMY ARMY! DANCE DANCE DANCE DANCE MORE!

a picture speaks a thousand words.

2008-07-01T04:31:00.002+08:00

remember the simple times?

:D

WOOT.

2008-06-25T05:49:00.002+08:00

now then i sleeping. hong gan already. haha. :D

camp is coming fast! army also.

$15000. 2years. LA.

possible? hahaha.

ahh, finally a weekend thats stress free.

2008-06-24T03:44:00.000+08:00

haha, saturday was WORK, and yes, i got myself a reward. haha.

NIKE DUNK SB LOW!

hahaha. im not used to seeing my ankles actually. but i wanted to get a low cut shoe, cause too much of high cut recently. too dancer for me already. need to find the chill side of myself. lol.

well. SENTOSA is fun. even though we din really plan what to do there. BUT I CAME UP WITH GOOD IDEA.

jump into water.

i suck at that. seriously. everytime i try to jump, i will have this weird questionmark in my head, next moment, i trip into the water. hahaha. zzz.

so loser, can dance, btu cant even jump into water. lolol.

2 more weeks to army! CHIONG AR!

hello world.

2008-06-21T08:34:00.003+08:00

haha, now i know working and dancing tgt really takes a toll on people.

*kowtow to orange, becca, yen and the list will never end....

yesterday was really a great lesson for me. because it focus on my one thing, EXTENSIONS.
my killer weakness. haha.

BUT NO! im not emo or depressed over it. because i know its do-able. just takes tiem and effort. haha.

but i got wobbly legs now. lol.

well, gonna work later at some kids central event. hope its gonna be fun. MONEY IS GOOD SIA. hahaha.

ok, gotta go. BYEEE.

you say you are looking for love, but do you actually deserve?

think it through people.

almost.

2008-06-16T02:41:00.002+08:00

Can you tell me
How can one miss what she's never had
How could I reminisce when there is no past
How could I have memories of
being happy with you boy
Could someone tell me how can this be
How could my mind pull up incidents
Recall dates and times that never happened
How could we celebrate a love that's too late
And how could I really mean the
words I'm bout to say

I missed the times that we almost shared
I miss the love that was almost there
I miss the times that we use to kiss
At least in my dreams
Just let me take my time and reminisce
I miss the times that we never had
What happened to us we were almost there
Whoever said it's impossible to
miss when you never had
Never almost had you

I cannot believe I let you go
Or what I should say I shoulda grabbed
you up and never let you go
I shoulda went out with you
I should have made you my boo boy
Yeah that's one time I shoulda broke the rules
I shoulda went on a date
Shoulda found a way to escape
Shoulda turned a almost into
If it happend now its too late
How could I celebrate a love that wasn't real
And if it didn't happen why does my heart feel

I missed the times that we almost shared
I miss the love that was almost there
I miss the times that we use to kiss
At least in my dreams
Just let me take my time and reminisce
I miss the times that we never had
What happened to us we were almost there
Whoever said it's impossible to
miss when you never had
Never almost had you

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i know this is random but it just happens that love songs hit me hard sometimes.
well, the song lyrics kinda applies to me. BUT! I'm not regretting. i just look back at the past and smiled that it happened.

then again, i dunno man. its whatever, i got a whole life ahead of me, yet, sometimes i look back at the should have/could have. stupid me? or stubborn me?

you tell me.

well, at least i learn lessons. but then again, it seems that the lessons i 'took', took a toll on me. kinda snowballed and made me what i am now. my confession to make today.

i already forget how to fall in love with someone, how to care for someone.

now don't mix me up with those emo faggots. im not sad. im just saying.

because, how could i miss what i never had? :/

the big groove

2008-06-11T03:46:00.002+08:00

before we know it, its over. i enjoyed myself. :D
its the biggest stage of my dancing life. I'm proud to say i shared the same stage with some amazing dancers out there.

well, i felt good on stage. i was the first time i full out till i barely had enough strength to go off stage. i don't really know was it my best up there, to be honest i don't really know what I'm capable of on stage but somehow, it didn't feel like a performance to me, instead i felt like i was just happy dancing and that the audience just happen to be there, that kind of feeling.

thank you the choreographers for coming up with the sick piece of work, hope i did justice to what you guys/lady gave. LOL. i gotta admit, its hella tough. haha. you sick choreographers. kukubird.

i wanted to like mass send SMS to everyone, but was really in the mood to do so, sorry! but here's a personal shout out to everyone:

to Ore: SUSHI BABY. glad to be on that stage with a brother. you know you are one sick bastard. i ain't gonna say no more man. just hope your work doesn't take away your dance time. i have learn a lot from you, be it dance or not. you showed me maturity. seriously. respect.

to Nicole aka puffy head: HAHA. you dope! you got fever still can do TBG. ultimate already. but what you told me that day, never once i felt your dancing was not good or what. really. there my be a lot of things small about you but definitely not your dancing. don't stress yourself aite. HAA. GOOD JOB.

to Jaei: rmb how you complain and struggled after big groove practises saying this is not your style and all, well i think you pulled it off pretty well. haha, BREAKTHROUGH coming for you i guess? haha. damn you improve so fast, its like i can't even bother catching up. LOL. but good for you. :D

to Ter: you gubye talent. really la. i hate you for being so talented! joking, i love your choreography. haha. fresh style. sick control. its like theres nth you cant do man. NS coming to get the both of us, haha. stay strong aite. :D and recover your taste buds soon before you are force to eat canteen food all day. haha.

to Ken: you also another one. talented bastard. LOL. choreographies by you were nv easy, from fantazia to big groove. your feel, sick one. i just cant catch it. haha. but keep doing what you do man. mad respect. YOU ORD SOON, haha. its gonna be your world after that luh. jia you. :D

to Yen: fat girl. although i abit ??? when you permed your hair, but i think you did well on big groove, despite the fact that you were sick and miss a few practices. actually until now, your choreo i still find it hard. HAHA. but keep doing what you do ok. dun let work take dance away from you. i know it wont, but ahaha. JIA YOU. i like to see you dance. :)

to Allegra: please don't blame yourself for the costume. its really not worth losing sleep over or being sad or whatever. because i think its really nice. blame expo for having such a stupid back drop. LOL. AIYA, you no need say one la, your dance is self-explanatory. but thank you for telling me what i lack, the fact that you dont just say things nice to the ears but in fact being true to a friend makes me respect you alot as a dancer and as a person. aha. but good luck at work, 5.30am every morning is seriously too hard core. JIA YOU!

to Becca: BECCA DON'T BOUNCE! haha, thats what we hear in the studio. but you good sia, like, don't know how to explain. just good. like, small small, but see you dance only then chua sai already. gubye one. my pleasure to be in the same item as you man. esp. on such a big stage, and thank you for help me through this performance.

to JJ: haha, i'm quite surprise this is you first big groove like me, because you look like those veteran, like zai one. nv see you panic before. haha. but seriously i respect your calmness and also shout JIAYOU when everyone like tired and like getting gloomy. haha. you like kai xing guo of our team. thank you so much. :D and, i think you did a great job on that TBG stage as well as in today's studio. :D

to Xinxian: hmm, i dont really know you well, but seriously i think your control very good. like, that time i saw you did the groove thing. imba. back to tbg, well, i seriously stun when that day i heard you were going back home to WORK. WTH, i thought i was tired but you still can work after the practices?! respect. super happy to be on the same stage with you. even though we not super close or anything, but its just an honor for me. somehow. haha. :D

to Sophan: ABANGGGG. hahaa. its nice to see you back in the studio nowadays, and its even nicer to dance alongside you. on that stage somemore. and thank you for the lightings. i think NRA only you cna do those lightings shit. like nobody knows how to do it. lol, and i think you are one of the major reasons why our practices are so productive. i feel la. well, happy to dance with you. maybe you might see me in MP after BMT? hahaa.

to Glen: although you prolly wont be able to read this until 2 weeks later but firstly, good luck in ARMY. dont let that army shit take dance away from you aite. im sure you gonna do fine. haha. and yes, its been fun dancing alongside you, since SOC till now. even though sometimes we keep saying you slack, but we know you did push right. haha. dope job done. :D

to Fredy: you freaking talented lucky bastard. haha. its nice to see you after you when MIA for awhile. but your purple hair, really abit too ultimate for me. but personally for me its an honor to share the same stage as you, not because it brings me closer to your standard or whatever, but its what you have taught me since fantazia, like how to look at things. how to stay strong. well, even though you are like super busy, i hope you stop like staying up late and tryign to be superman ok, you seriously will die earlier one. other then that, keep dancing.

to Zixiang: hello mr krump. you into KRUMPING right. can see you tyring out some moves. anyway, its been nice to dance with you on that stage. aha, honestly i find you abit slack last time. but i think tbg you kinda proved to me and everyone you are here for a reason. haha. im not saying im in a position to doubt you but im just being truthful here. haha. but still, its nice to dance with you. since SOC, till now tbg. haha. its almost like a reunion. well, keep working at it tgt aite. :D

well, for me, i was quite sad that big groove is over. haha. its kinda weird, the first performance i saw when i came into NRA was the big groove, now before i go to the army i have the big groove sort of like 'end' it. haha.

yes, i know army is not gonna take dance away from me. after the big groove, im sure of that. because its something i wan to do so badly, i would give anything for it. just a lil wish though, i hope next year big groove, whole of SUSHI can be in it. HAHA. well, just thinking out loud. :D

hmm. one month away from army. just wanna be happy dancing everyday. nth else. MAN, I WROTE ALOT. WOOOWWWWW. hahahhahaaaa.

the date is nearing.

2008-06-05T04:01:00.002+08:00

ok, big groove is nearing. everyone is kinda worked up about it. well, at least from my point of view it is. but i know we can pull this off. i know it. somehow. haha.

limitations is a word hated almost every single person on the planet. because with this words brings along feelings like restriction and lost of freedom.

i personally hate it. because its always frustrating to know that there is something you cannot do, and other people can do it. yes, to be able to do everything on earth, then i would not be human already. but we all know humans yearn for perfection. i do too.

but through 2 years of dancing, i have come to face it that perfection is impossible, in classical sense of the word. but if to me, as a person, to my own definition of perfection? its hella possible. haha.

why i feel this way? because i have seen amazing people around me achieve the 'impossible'

like Ann, teaching a club of 100+ people with such a back condition,
like the numerous days of long practice hours to rush out a production like FANTAZIA,
like how danzation came to reality after Ann just accidentally said it,
like how NRA swept SUNTEC 2007,
like how we did in funka '08. NOTE, 3 best male dancers now, and our first best female,
like how Rough addicts got 4th in battlegrounds Australia.
like how 8 steps improve from shitty heats and still got into finals,
like how freestyling start in NRA,
like how we got be friends with each another,
like how brotherhood and family is formed in this dance club,

see, i'm am so accustomed to moving laong with time and just continue with dance and life that we forget we actually did things deem impossible in our own eyes at a certain period of our time.

see if we think this way, THINK ABOVE THE LINE, stay positive, and just work at it, we can do almost anything with this. be it our 5 years goal or whatever. its possible.

hahaa.

i think that i typed so much because i didnt blog for super long. NOW YOU GUYS GOT SOMETHING TO READ! BE HAPPY! HAHAHA. :D

Momentum

2008-05-28T16:14:00.002+08:00

woots. later its gonna be momentum performance! i bet its gonna be so sick.

haha the mc said, "lets welcome one of the best crews around"

alot of us got intimidated. including me. well, like Ann said, THINK ABOVE THE LINE!

SO LETS JIAYOU JIAYOU JIAYOU! muahahhaaaa.

as long as we give our best. that will be good enough luh. :D CHIONG AR!

new blood

2008-05-23T04:37:00.000+08:00

today is the official passing down of the committee!

hope the new blood takes NRA to new heights. today is also the start of the crew.

major change for NRA now. hope everything is gonna be even better then before. in 5 years time. WOO. cannot wait.

EVERYDAY DANCE HARD! thats all i want. really.

i love dance.

2008-05-21T05:05:00.001+08:00

HAPPY 21st BIRTHDAY XUAN FENG.

hahaa.

i love dance. really really love it. don't really know how to put it into words but, just love it.

hope i can improve somemore. haha.

work hard people, and work smart. JIAYOU JIAYOU JIAYOU!

NRA GO GO GO!

epiphany

2008-05-16T03:34:00.001+08:00

stop the talking, and start the walking.

CWA. guys u know what that means eh. haaaa.

well, just one phrase today,

share the love. :)

no title but,

2008-05-12T01:47:00.001+08:00

i just wanna say, I SUPER FEEL LIKE DANCING NOW.

REALLY. SUPERRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR.

I WANNA DANCE. i dun care im good or bad.

i just wanna dance. to express.

cause i got thoughts in me, that i dun wanna say out.

so, i wanna dance it out.

lets have a session shall we? :D

nowadays. i feel..

2008-05-11T03:42:00.002+08:00

nowadays. i got so many things to say.
so many things i wanna voice out to express.

its so much, i don't know where to start.

i rather do it. then say. lol.

looking back.

2008-05-08T04:01:00.001+08:00

well, its already the start of my 3rd year dancing.

i reckon, time to go back to basics. :D

back to basics.

2008-05-07T03:22:00.002+08:00

i reckon, its time for me to take a step back, look at things from a different perspective.

i wanna go back to my basics, and start all over.

strengthen my foundation.
improve my control.
work on spotting.
practice techniques.
practice footwork.
do isolations.
do house basics.
work on groove.
find my feel.
work on confidence.
session more.

but with all those said now there's just one last thing.

i wanna have fun doing all those. :)

GOOD LUCK RON!

brave on, the road is still long.

2008-05-04T03:46:00.003+08:00

gonna take a small break now. just wanna sort things out.

i know that are things i should have done. but i just dance, with the thought of repping us, and enjoy. haa. thats enough for me already. if that is not enough then i simply have to work on it more. haha.

hmm, haven really got to do my own things since the start of the year. but, don't think i will bother now. haha.

AND YES,

thank you ore. :D

thank you FD, BW, allegra, ken.

nice sessioning with all of you, now sushi can session for the fun of it again. and not session to train for competition. to me it kinda feels weird to session for a comp. haha.

well, sometimes exprience does matters. its not an execuse for me. but its a fact.

but to me, attitude and hardwork are most important, and now i know where i stand, and i can proceed from there. haha.

go ronnie. gogogogogo.

but, for now, im chillin. haha. SUSHI BABY.

another round.

2008-05-03T02:03:00.002+08:00

wrong mindsets is very badddddddd.

that makes me very baddd. haha.

well, part and parcel of life. i hope i can learn through this journey. which i know i will. just need more positive energy.

STOP BEING NEGATIVE MAN. haha. chill, and relax one corner. hoho. GOGOGOGOGO.

to blackjack, terrinagi and nice&easy,

lets rep NRA. BIG TIME. muahahahahaha. :X

CAUTION: DEGRADING HEALTH.

2008-05-01T05:54:00.000+08:00

i need to live like a human. seriously.

im slapping myself in the face.

hai. what a disappoint, time and again. -.-

time for an update!

2008-04-29T04:23:00.001+08:00

KO NIGHT.

damn, din really felt good about it to be honest. very different feeling compare to normal competitions that we joined. haha. gonna have to freestyle this saturday. SO DEAD MAN.

need to work on it big time.

I need to be more confident. so i can freestyle without mirror. but freestyling with mirror is already cmi. lol. CHIONG AR! great chance for breakthrough. haha.

well, gonna be dancing alot nowadays. WOOTs.

BEST THING THATS HAPPENING LATER.

ann's class. yay!

:D

fantazia

2008-04-21T03:54:00.002+08:00

fantazia is over.

thank you

thank you
thank you
thank you
thank you
thank you
thank you
thank you
thank you
thank you
thank you

here is 120 'thank you's to all of NRA dancers. its been a pleasure and my honor to dance along side you guys. really amazing dancers.

thank you ann, i doubt you will read this because you are probably too busy with work but, still i hope you know that im thankful for everything,

for believing in me,

giving me chances,

for scolding me,

for telling me my flaws,

for correcting me,

for making me a better dancer,

for making me a better man,

for tell me to have faith.

the list could nv end. but i just wanna tell you, that i would have nv be what i am now without you. so, THANK YOU! :D

fantazia is really a breath taking experience for me. some of my first times are given to fantazia. like doing a jazz item. i would have nv been able to picture myself doing that. and a contemporary/hiphop item like apologize. stressful item i must say, since the dancers inside are all people i respect and look up to alot.

candyman: thank you peiyi and vicks. i know im not the best partnerwork guy around but, i had a great time man, hope you all bruises faster go away aite? haha. and props to JJ, you imagination is wayyyy to sick. formation, groups. lol. RESPECT! and sorry if i make you piss off. cause sometimes i know i like lazy. :D

fever: thank you jaei and mingli. really, its my first time doing jazz so i bad you 2 definately had to put up with alot of hiccups during partnerwork right! ahahaha SORRY AR! but its really hard to look expensive. lol. seriosuly, but its fun to try. whatever it is, thank you to both of you! been my pleasure to do partnerwork with you 2. :D

come to me: lol, to ter and chao, amazing job. despite we like super ultimate last minute. but it did turn out okk right! ahaha.

hate that i love you: thank you ken for the choreo. its something that i have been wanting to do for soooooo damn long. finally i got it. mad props to the choreography. smooth and got feel man. but i cant carry it out as well yet, I WILL JIA YOU DE! :D

thank you jaei again, i know sometime i spin you too long you feel like vomiting. haha. but i enjoyed that item with you. even though our ending always poke each otehr eye or nose. hahaha. JIA YOU AR! :D

make your body move: this is one is for XF man, hope he will be a happy man when he sees the video. lol, great reviews from other people though. haha, loved the item. and the 'bazooka'

helena: thank you fredy. to be honest i kinda struggled with your choreography. cause is damn hard hitting and the lines need to be extended beyond limits. but, without your choreography, it would not have made me realise the lines that i can do. and great conept! haha. and its my first time putting eye shadow. WOO.

yutaki: thank you yutaki. even though you wont see this. but i had fun. and its an honor to do an item along side the pioneer of NRA. :D

cant help but wait: and other amazing dancer's choreography. thank you for giving a chance to do your item clement. its really nice, well. at least i enjoyed alot. even though you call me set self pract then end up everyone slack like dunno what. hahahaa.

apologize: thank you Ann, for letting me do this item. it has really open my mind up alot to take in new stuff that i never thought that i will ever touch. really. thank you for such inspiring me through your choreography. you never cease to amaze me. :D

thank you, terence, yen, jun chao, xuan feng, ken, fredy, sophan for having me in your showcases. i really learnt alot. be it showmanship, feel, groove or control. i think you guys helped me out alot. thank you.

well, fantazia is over before we know it. well, there will never be another fantazia same as this. its a memory that i will keep with me forever. haha, i enjoyed the process. hope everyone feels the same way too.

DANCE HARD PEOPLE!

and yes, do send me the pictures/videos if its not to much to ask for. :D

FANTAZIA

2008-04-17T02:51:00.003+08:00

its just hours to showtime. i know theres alot of things we should have do, should not have do.

but it does not matter anymore. even if its not danzation.

i hope we can give our all and put up a good shows. be it whatever reasons. for your own family, for yourself, for your friends.

i just hope fantazia will be good. i really hope it will be good.

lets put aside our difference and dance as a CREW alright? for just this 2 days?

thank you everyone for being part on this journey with me till now.

lets shine. :D

to myself.

2008-04-11T04:47:00.003+08:00

its getting better.

its good to believe. to have faith.

because when you embrace what is happening, you can then react to it, then escaping.

low confidence is no longer an execuse.

i want a breakthrough?

then i gotta work towards it.

don't talk, DO.

don't EXPECT, but have faith.

because when you have faith, you will see the light.

faith doesnt only come from within you, it comes from around you.

people around you have faith in you, but i myself then need to have faith.

its hard, i know. but its part of growing up.

its hard, yet its something i want so much.

so, have faith ron. :)

one week away to showtime.

2008-04-10T01:04:00.001+08:00

i just realise how weak i am.

i need to be strong, and stay that way.

because im the only son.

because i wanna be leaned on.

because i wanna be strong.

please.

have faith.

fantazia is nearing. and random thoughts are coming.

2008-04-03T02:52:00.002+08:00

yes, everyone is feeling the heat now. some people might regret not putting enough effort up till now.

and im definately one of them. not that im purposely slacking but i just feel that i cant take out my 100% like last time. and i really wanna know why. seriously.

i have new found respect for alot of people. people that i take it for granted. like Ann, the alumnis, seniors, juniors and also freshies.

sometimes its those small things that make you change you point of view, and you end up feeling stupid about your assumptions about people. its been a long time since i really wrote in this blog i guess.

but i just wanna say thanks to everyone that ever came across my life.

and i wanna say sorry, for things i could have done/say, shouldnt have done/say.

i wanna be a better man. but, HOW.

updated?

2008-03-31T03:22:00.001+08:00

i need to be responsible. ARGH.

grow up ronnie. GROW UP.

tired.

omg, 2 weeks. haha.

2008-03-30T03:54:00.001+08:00

2 weeks to fantazia! need to chiong.

need to pang seh the games abit. LOL.

i hope. :D

omgwtfbbq long nv update. lol.

2008-03-21T02:32:00.002+08:00

omg, today almost died from pract. TECHNIQUE MADNESS YO.

i need to work on my technique big time man. not giving ann what she wants.

other then that, im just plain tired. 1 month to show time. totally not prepared yet.

but somehow im gonna make things work, not because i have to, but its because I WANT TO. :D

ASSIGNMENT. :D

1 more month!

2008-03-19T01:49:00.001+08:00

GO HARD.
GO HARD.
GO HARD.
GO HARD.
GO HARD.
GO HARD.
GO HARD.
GO HARD.
GO HARD.
GO HARD.
GO HARD.
GO HARD.
GO HARD.
GO HARD.
GO HARD.
GO HARD.

then

GO HARDER. :D

crunch time.

2008-03-12T00:12:00.001+08:00

i need to be making right choices from now on.
more importantly, i think i need to make more sensible choices.

and fast. argh.

note: extremely stupid entry.

2008-03-09T05:23:00.003+08:00

once again, an epiphany, or sort of,

its amazing what things can make you think otherwise, even the smallest thing possible.

step up 2 is dope, for me. because it made me realise.

i've been so stupid and shallow all along. if i put it straight, im barely scratch the top layer of DANCE.

things like showmanship, attitude, control. all along i trained. well, i least i thought i was training hard.

until now, i realise, i train without a correct purpose. of course we want to make choreographies look good. but what good is that if you are dancing without a personality? or say, a soul?

to what Ann told me a long time ago, thats is MOVING to her, not DANCING.

because we all know, dance is an expression. and all expressions needs to come from something, that something is your soul. your very own X-factor that makes you, you.

its amazing how much a movie can show me, there are people in this world, who can't dance even if they wanted to, but yet, im able to but not doing my best.

DAMN IT! why does it feels so hard to give a 100% now. guess im all talk. sometimes i dun even feel comfortable in my own skin. AGRH. this post is so bloody negative that i feel like im gonna commit suicide after this.

i wanna find my love back for dance, not that is gone, but its faded. but theres still a fire. a fire that no matter what i do, i will continue to let it burn.

FAITH UP! :)

lol. i love my friends. :D

2008-03-04T04:20:00.002+08:00

really, i love my friends. im the luckiest bastard on earth to have all this friends. :D

i know it random. but really i got this feel. haha.

holidays.

2008-03-01T03:11:00.000+08:00

tired. really very tired.

but im loving every moment of it.

my place of peace. :)

hello to my next phrase of life.

2008-02-26T00:12:00.002+08:00

FIRST OF ALL!

RONNIE IS HAS FINISHED SCHOOL AND IS GRADUATED! (hopefully, lol)

hmm, song and dance is coming up. better work hard if not im gonna mess up! haha.

talents.
the other day, i was thinking about whats mine after reading shanes blog. i was hoping it to be dance. but i know its not. and i have come to accept that fact, trust me, it took awhile. LOL.

well, at least i can hold my chin up and say i really love to dance. i think thats better then having any amount of talent. LOL. ok, self-consoling i know.

well, life's been pretty good i guess. gotta catch up on my sleep time. finish up some stuff, and see what happens from then on. so....

IM OFF TO BED! hahha, i know you all wanna read more. LOL. jking. :)

At tml 11.00am :

2008-02-19T14:03:00.001+08:00

its goodbye to studies.

and HELLOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO to dance & more...

:D

IM BACK!

2008-02-19T03:32:00.001+08:00

im back now! with a brand new laptop. LOL.

BEAT THAT MAN. lol, i childish shit.

well, im graduating on WEDNESDAY!

then i will be free! HOLIDAYS BABY.

then army. -.-

lazy to blog. ahahaaaa..

SONG AND DANCE COME AR! CHIONG AR! UP! :)

gone for a week

2008-02-13T17:49:00.002+08:00

well, com is down.

will update when my lapy is back.

till then. :)

meanwhile, go listen to Let go by neyo. its a good song.

time flies pass fast.

2008-02-09T18:18:00.001+08:00

blink of an eye. im graduating. army soon.

my life is so weird. many people told me that its sucks to be in my shoes.

well, for certain parts of life. i agree. yet., some other things in life. i couldnt be more thankful for it. haha.

well, i wanna blog but i gotta go. HAHA. bye. :)

sadly, you took my smile away.

2008-02-09T05:45:00.000+08:00

exams, dance.
song and dance, dance.
army, dance.
work, dance.
life, dance.

:)

dance is a by far the best creation by humans for me.

its also a language the hardest to master, yet the most expressive.

i love it. really. it puts a smile on my face, in my heart. a genuine one.

:)

i wanna thank everyone that i have danced with till now. been a pleasure.

:)

yet, reality bites. smile more ronnie, one step at a time. don't rush. lol.